Friday, September 24, 2004
Zen and Me
Howdy everyone. Well, for those two or three of you who still maybe remember who I am and check here for my news.
Blogging is an adventure that the more resourceful people of the world have put to better use than myself. You can find all kinds of blogs that discuss world issues in meaningful and sometimes meaningless ways. Me? I discuss those things that only I find interesting--me and my so-called life.
I've been doing a LOT of thinking this past year. I've been trying to make amends for my past mistakes and plot a new course into tomorrow. One thing I've decided for sure is that I've got to get my life back. I don't know where its been for the past four years but I know its been out of my hands. I've stopped caring about anything or anyone. I don't see the joy in life that I once knew. Drugs and therapy haven't helped me find it. Nothing external seems to do any good. Change has to come from within. Caring enough to make a decision to actually do something is the hardest step of all. It is so damn easy to do nothing. I've done plenty of that for several lifetimes over the past four years.
Getting back into this blog will help me steer a new path in my life. Talking about all the stuff that's bothering me will give me a chance to sort it all out. Doing nothing won't help at all.
So, I'm going to try and publish more frequent updates to my life right on this page. Edited, of course. Just for clarity and meaning, never for content. Hell, my life is PG anyway.
The Buddha once said: "Everything created must perish." That's stuck with me for a while now and the more I think about that statement the more comfort it gives me. Strange, but true. The only way to achieve freedom from negative thinking is to embrace negative thinking. If I cannot escape the crap in my head then I have to learn to deal with it in a more positive manner.
Meanwhile, its time to get busy and get out the vote for the Democratic Party. We've got to unemploy GWB so we can take back the direction of our country and leave something for our descendants. As I posted earlier, I feel a sense of urgency now that I've a little niece to watch over. Everything we do is for those who come after us. It matters who we selected to lead our country now. If we screw it up and give W four more years I'm afraid we're just hurting those we love when it will matter most to them.
Say it now, all-together: "JFK all the way!"
Blogging is an adventure that the more resourceful people of the world have put to better use than myself. You can find all kinds of blogs that discuss world issues in meaningful and sometimes meaningless ways. Me? I discuss those things that only I find interesting--me and my so-called life.
I've been doing a LOT of thinking this past year. I've been trying to make amends for my past mistakes and plot a new course into tomorrow. One thing I've decided for sure is that I've got to get my life back. I don't know where its been for the past four years but I know its been out of my hands. I've stopped caring about anything or anyone. I don't see the joy in life that I once knew. Drugs and therapy haven't helped me find it. Nothing external seems to do any good. Change has to come from within. Caring enough to make a decision to actually do something is the hardest step of all. It is so damn easy to do nothing. I've done plenty of that for several lifetimes over the past four years.
Getting back into this blog will help me steer a new path in my life. Talking about all the stuff that's bothering me will give me a chance to sort it all out. Doing nothing won't help at all.
So, I'm going to try and publish more frequent updates to my life right on this page. Edited, of course. Just for clarity and meaning, never for content. Hell, my life is PG anyway.
The Buddha once said: "Everything created must perish." That's stuck with me for a while now and the more I think about that statement the more comfort it gives me. Strange, but true. The only way to achieve freedom from negative thinking is to embrace negative thinking. If I cannot escape the crap in my head then I have to learn to deal with it in a more positive manner.
Meanwhile, its time to get busy and get out the vote for the Democratic Party. We've got to unemploy GWB so we can take back the direction of our country and leave something for our descendants. As I posted earlier, I feel a sense of urgency now that I've a little niece to watch over. Everything we do is for those who come after us. It matters who we selected to lead our country now. If we screw it up and give W four more years I'm afraid we're just hurting those we love when it will matter most to them.
Say it now, all-together: "JFK all the way!"
